Pause

You know how sometimes you have those moments, or days, or even weeks where you just wish you could hit the pause button and take some time to figure things out and get everything back on track? This summer has not been one of those times. At least I didn't really feel like I needed that pause button. God had other plans. It's about 2:20 on a Wednesday afternoon. I should be out at VBS or working with one of our other kid sites. But I am sitting in the staff office, on my computer, blogging. I didn't feel like I needed a week off. But that is what happened.

Last Thursday when Jason came by for my site visit he mentioned that the number of serving groups was going to be smaller than expected and there would probably be one host who would serve as a "floater". He said that it was down to either me or Steph who would be floating around, helping out around Star and filling in for anybody who needed/wanted a break. Turns out neither of us got assigned to a group so we're both on call this week.

I wasn't really sure what this week was going to be like and wasn't really sure that I was going to appreciate this break from hosting a group. Monday and Tuesday weren't bad at all. We got to tag along with the big group from Michigan for dinner Monday night and VBS yesterday afternoon. We also got to sleep in yesterday and help Kristen around the office. Yesterday evening we had what I like to call "forced bonding" with the entire staff - which really isn't as bad as it sounds because our staff is awesome. Although we did have to write "poetry" round robin style. That was interesting. So my first day and a half of floating wasn't bad at all - in fact it was actually quite enjoyable. And then today happened. And Steph and I have been at Star all day. Except for those 30ish minutes when we walked across the street to the laundromat to wash sheets, towels, and blankets. I was not terribly excited about staying at the building today to clean and do more office work.

However, in the midst of everything I was reminded of a verse that I used to think about all the time. "Be still and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!" Be still and know that I am God. Essentially working from 5pm Sunday to 10am Saturday does not really allow for a lot of time to be still. Don't get me wrong - God has been revealing Himself in some amazing ways through all the busyness. But God also knows me very well. And He knows that as much as I protested and didn't want to take this break I needed some time to just be still and know that He is God. So for this week, God pressed the pause button for me. Because He knows me better than I know myself.